I live for quotes and music.
I contemplate a lot of what I do.
I'm a hypocrite, but isn't everyone.
I'm not a good speller.
I believe everything happens for a reason.
I love to swim and play volleyball.
I rather be in sweats and my hair up on top of my head then jeans and makeup.
I'm an addict for dying my hair.
I have never smoked anything in my life and I never will.
I have nothing against smokers or smoking I just wont.
I want to be a marine biologist but I'm going to school to be a vet.
Im dating the love of my life that I've been with since my sophomore year of high school.
I grew up a lot faster than anyone should or than I ever wanted to.
I love to cook.
I've never been happy with myself.
I think I have a unique look on life, but think that everyone probably thinks that.
I absolutely love everything from the 90's, the shows the music the toys the era.. everything.
I wish I grew up in the 20's, 50's or 70's.
I have 3 tattoos.. I'm addicted and will be covered when I have the money one day.
Anything else... you can find out about me on your own.
:) <3
Tue
Oct
6
Is love ever enough? Im 19 and I’ve been with the same kid since freshman year of highschool.. hypothetically Im a sophmore in college. I say I love him. I feel that I love him. But then I question everyday is what I put myself through to be with him worth it. Its not that hes a bad boyfriend.. he has never cheated on me (that I know of) and in my heart I dont think that he has the heart to hurt me like that either. But he lies about the stupidest stuff and sometimes extremly important stuff. We dont go on dates, we never have, we never will. Im over the whole romance and cute stuff. I dont expect that.. I dont expect much. I basically live with him.. well I did till I moved home to rethink things and get my life back on semi track.
Im not your average 19 year old girl. I dont spend all my money on the cute new trends from the mall. I spend it on gas to get me to work. An occasional tattoo when Im pretty sick of everything else in my life and just need to chill our for an hour or so. I sit on tumblr which no I no noes anything about and look for pictures that mean something to me. And I hang out with my boyfriend. I live for him i breathe eat sleep and do everything with him. Im not a crazy obsessed girlfriend, hes just the only thing in my life. I dont have parents or any type of parental supervison. All my best friends are all his bestfriend we’ve all been together since freshman year with a few friends that have came and gone. Hes the one I thought I could rely on the most in my life. And now hes proving . I dont no if we’ve just grown apart or if we’re just that comfortable together but its not ok with me. If we stay together will we just grow farther apart.. im not 30 and married im 19. Although I dont go out and party and get drunk and do shit that other 19 years old get to do because I work every single day of my life and if I do so happen to get a day off I sleep the whole day and get out of bed for food and thats it.. I dont want my relationship to reflect my grown up life style that I have no choice but to live.
I dont know if any of this makes sense. Or if anyone will read this.. which im sure no one will. And im ok with that. I just needed to vent. If someone does happen to read this…any advice or input or two sense would be greatly appreciated.
